For the first time in the tour, we are not travelling today! Instead, we were spending the day in Petra, hiking along the natural path carved through the mountains, heading toward the famous Treasury building carved into a mountain side in Petra. If you have ever seen Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade, it is the building they enter where Harrison Ford, as Indiana Jones, completes the trials and finds the old knight guarding the King's Chalice.
I was really excited about heading out on the day trip, not only to see the Treasury building, but to get a greater feel for the land and conditions that the Israelites might have had to battle during their journey through the wilderness. On top of this, today we would be riding horses through part of the journey, and I have never had the opportunity to ride one, so that was also an exciting prospect.
Last night I noticed a red mark on my left foot, by the time I had finished dinner the red mark had spread across the top of my foot and had swollen quite a bit. I went to see someone in ur tour party that used to be a nurse, and she was quite shocked. I started a course of antibiotics last night, and have to apply hydrocortisone cream to the affected area three times a day. On top of this, she advised me to keep my foot up, because she suspected it was cellulitis.
Based on this recommendation, I was not allowed to take part in the activities for the day and had to remain at the hotel, while most others went to the trail. Needless to say, I was devastated by the fact that I was not given the choice of whether I wanted to go along or not. Rather, I was told I could not go. My frustration and disappointment got the better of me, and I threw my water bottle at the ground and sat on the stairs away from the rest of the group.
A few others stayed behind due to illness, so I had company for part of the day, and alone time for other parts. As the group left, I had time to calm down and reflect on the events of the morning with another that stayed. While he also wanted to go, it was clear that he wouldn't have made the journey, which he acknowledged. I have to say, it was nice not to be rushing around all over the place in the scorching hot sun for a change. The time to rest was probably much needed, and afforded me the opportunity to speak to my son in Adelaide over Skype, which we hadn't been able to do yet. So in one way, I felt lucky to have had the opportunity to sit and relax, and speak to my family, but in another way I felt that I had been removed of my ability to decide what I can and can't do, within the normal boundaries of the trip.
Reflecting throughout the day on this, I recalled Matt Gray's talk on pilgrimage, and if you go back to the third day with our trip on the ferry from Egypt to Jordan you will see that I have spoken about this before. In his talk, he spoke of pilgrims undergoing purgation. Sometimes this is voluntary, and at other times it is forced upon you. On the ferry trip we had our passports taken, this was not voluntary. Likewise, today, I had my ability to decide taken away. On reflection, my ability to decide and my insistence that I would be able to cope with the pain and suffering, most likely equates to pride. In my conversations, my questions centred around the question of whether I was being stripped of my pride as part of my pilgrimage purgation.
Interestingly, my anger and disappointment abated as I reflected on this question, and talked it through with others. Instead, I felt calm and peaceful while I spent time either in solitude or with other members of our touring party that stayed behind.
The most disappointing part of the day was finding out that lunch started at 3pm. While I was excited to find out it was A La Carte, it meant having to hand over money for a meal that was supposed to be provided as part of the trip, and with money having been spent on a doctor and medication that we weren't expecting to have to spend, I wasn't happy with spending money I didn't really have for such a late lunch when dinner was just a few short hours away.
The biggest thing I got from today was the community and friendship that was built by spending time with other touring members that were not able to traverse the arduous path of Petra. In the end, being stripped of control over decisions about whether I participate or not was a blessing, and not a curse.
In some ways, this was confirmed when the first group returned from Petra. While they had a great lunch that I was envious of, the sun was unforgiving and the terrain was tougher than expected. However, when the second group returned roughly an hour or so later, I found out that they had climbed to a "high place", as described in the Old Testament. As I have been studying Amos these last few months, this was a significant find, and something I would have really liked to have been a part of. While I was envious that they had visited a high place, I still felt blessed to have been able to rest and enjoy the company of a few others in relative comfort, after a number of very long days.
WICKED!!!!!
15 years ago
