Losing My Head?

Yesterday I mentioned a few thing I had identified as areas that I could improve to improve our quality of life and relieve some stress in our family. If you don't know, I'm a mortgage broker but I haven't exactly been writing a ton of loans. The fact of the matter is that this year (2007) I've written a grand total of one, yes one, loan. Not exactly enough to live on... not to mention the bills and money owed to other people.

Yesterday it looked as though I might have picked up 3 or 4 clients, which would have been a nice little boost to the finances. I've realised that 1 loan a month will replace one of our incomes, while one loan a week will replace our entire household income, which is the aim at this stage.

Today, I made a couple of calls... and I've managed to cross at least one client off my list (which would have been a pretty valuable client). I'll know tomorrow whether I'm about to cross another very valuable client off my list... I'm waiting on a phone call from another (I'll be calling them tomorrow to follow up) and the other one is all up in the air.

So just when a ray of hope hits my desk, it looks like the clouds were just parting momentarily.

I've got an assessment tomorrow at Uni, been feeling very tired all afternoon for some reason, found out I've lost at least one client (probably 2 and maybe 3) and then went to cricket. We started off well. Batting first, our first pair made 61, which is a pretty good score. I batted as part of the second pair. We didn't go so well. Lost a lot of wickets... and made -24. Our last pair made -10.

Needless to say I wasn't very happy.

The game continued in much the same way. We were pretty average in the field, although when it came to the crunch we managed to defend our good target set by the first batting pair for the drinks. I wasn't overly happy with some of the endeavour and I let my frustration show, particularly when I punched the net (which really didn't do anything except cut a couple of fingers on my hand).

A couple of weeks ago the key verse for the sermon was "but you, keep your head in all situations" (1 Timothy 4:5a). That lesson was quickly forgotten it seems. I got frustrated and angry with myself and my teammates, although I didn't take anything out on them. I was still able to have a laugh on the court with teammates and the opposition, but during the ball by ball play, I was very uptight about various aspects of our game.

Well, on a more positive note, I kept up the devotional and bible readings last night on my journey to bed. After doing my weights, we did some devotional readings and read from Proverbs and Psalms. Just the last couple of nights have been interesting reading and learning about different things via devotional readings.

I have an assessment tomorrow at Uni, so I'm probably going to head to bed shortly.