Goodbye Grandma

So today I probably saw my grandma for the last time. A sad day for me. She's probably the closest person I ever got to in my life. I'll miss her.

She's incredibly ill, but a damned fighter to the end. She's had 2 massive heart attacks, a series of strokes and a major epileptic seizure that individually each should have killed her, especially in her frail state, but she just refuses to let them win.

She's a pit bull. Or the Energizer rabbit... She just keeps going and going. Neil Finn said it best "She goes on".

Anyway, she's gone to live in QLD with my aunty. She needs 24 hour care and noone here can provide it. My aunty in Brisbane doesn't work, so she offered to look after her.

The choices were 24 hour family care or a nursing home. It's hard enough getting her to go to the hospital after a heart attack. You can forget the nursing home.

We found out on Tuesday night that this was going to happen. She's had a bad turn recently, in and out of hospital every couple of weeks. Family racing around AUS coming to see her, wondering if it's the last time. She truly is a remarkable lady. She's my grandma, and I love her.

Hopefully I'll get to go see her soon. I know I've got enough frequent flyer points, it's just a matter of getting the time to go. Ha! I know what I'm like... if anything happens I'll be on the first plane to Brisbane.

I was always her favourite, so she tells everyone. So I guess I have a major soft spot for her, and maybe feel a little obligated and as if it's almost my "duty" to make sure she's ok. I always wanted to be there for her. She knows I'm thinking of her.

I'll miss her when she's gone.